As the world prepared for the Academy Awards last month my thoughts sweetly drifted back to my childhood in North Carolina and to my love of movies. Back in my rural town of tractor pulls, gun racks and running barefooted, I remembered being the artistic kid who loved the magical world of cinema. Movies like The Wizard of Oz and Gone With the Wind activated my imagination, while phrases like, “There’s no place like home” made me smile.
At the time I didn’t know that I was “trailer trash” until a teacher in elementary school told me. Uncertain of the characteristics of my new identity I figured I better dip snuff, chew some tobacco, and include an extra fried Spam™ sandwich in my bag lunches.
Then, one night my parents watched the Academy Awards. I was captivated by the pure intention behind the world of movie stars dripping in diamonds and evening attire as their peers floated on clouds of applause, accepting Oscars and sincerely thanking everyone.
Later that night I stood on my bed and quietly gave my Oscar acceptance speech while clutching my G. I. Joe doll until I fell asleep. This memory had faded until I moved to Los Angeles. Living in tinsel town surrounded by movie studios and all aspects of the entertainment industry reactivated my boyhood aspirations. “It’s not so silly to imagine holding an Oscar,” I thought as my phone rang.
It was a friend, excited to share the news that she was going to the Academy Awards and also to an Oscar exhibit – that night. She wanted me to go with her and have our picture taken holding the Oscar!
From playing make-believe as a kid to consciously applying the laws of creative mind I was reminded of Natalie Goldberg’s words, “Trust in what you love, continue to do it, and it will take you where you need to go.”
At the exhibit I had my picture taken with an Oscar. The statue had a magical effect on me, leaving me joyously uplifted. Was this how Judy Garland and Vivian Leigh felt?
Driving home along Hollywood Boulevard from the exhibit I recalled the teacher calling me trailer trash, I remembered my first Academy Award program for my coveted award. I often send prayers to that teacher for helping me understand there’s more unlimited potential within me than she could see. Today I’m especially grateful for the contrast of my early years and the foundation they laid for my spiritual growth.
Each day I intend my desired dreams and entertainment aspirations. Even when I forget to intend or waver in trusting my decisions I always trust the Universe and its unconditional part in co-creating on my behalf.
We’ve all come a long way from someone in our past that couldn’t see our hopes and dreams sparkling bright in our energy fields. Let’s trust they were doing the best they could at the time while trusting that we can and will create the lives we want.
Driving past the front gates of my driveway I smiled, I was home. Holding the Oscar had truly tickled my spirit. Walking through the front door I laughed; tossed my keys on my table and rummaged through the kitchen cabinets for the Spam. I was suddenly craving a sandwich. After all, “There’s no place like home.”
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